Saturday, December 31, 2011

allahuakabar...setakat hari..nearly one month..menjadi victim....
perasaan yg sgt sukar nk describe
dari seorang yg ceria/happy/gembira terus bertukar menjadi org yg sgt berbeza
pagi yg selalunya ceria happy..jadi very lame.dull....
bila teringat mesti sedih.
rasa nak jumpa dan nak sayang terus
nak terus care dan terus bersama masa susah& senang
selra pun kurang...mission and vission semua hilang..
pendek kata memang ''anhedonia''\kerja semua tak terurus
family jadi mangsa
rakan2 sejawat jadi mangsa
buat semua benda tak bersungguh...
kuat sungguh perasaan ni..

kesilapan:
1) MEMPERCAYAI orang tanpa usul periksa
2) cepat termakan pujuk rayu orang
3) cepat cair
4) memberi 100% perasaan pada manusia

its a lesson..what doenst kill u will always make u stronger..

sungguh ujian kali ni buat aku tak kuat
menguji hampir seluruh ruang rasional ku..

untuk dia:
aku masih belum dapat memaafkan mu walau sedikit pun
aku hanya mampu mendah tangn merayu pada tuhan agar kamu juga merasakan
setiap kesukaran yg aku rasa
telah kuputuskan semua doa sejahtera buat kamu
dan sesungguhnya tuhan itu adil...

tapi buat masa ni..aku perlu terus mencari diri ku yang sudah jauh hilang...
bantulah aku tuhan...

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

my sayang..

again today ayong kene pergi scope...hydroureter and left hydronepphrosis....
again satu ujian untuk kami semua...there was a stricture before but post removal still the hydrourether still not resolved.today she went for scan...mama follow her.
i left alone here praying that my ayong will always be fine..

i keep telling her..if anything happen ''u got my kidney FOC''..TAKE IT or i die seing u suffer...
we laugh at each other..but relly hope that she got the massege that her brother is sirius about this...

i love u...
my name is Norafandi b Mohd Noor.call me by that name.coz its my strength.

mencari sesuatu bg mengisi hati adalah satu cabaran yg ttak pernah berakhir.dalam mengejar semua impian duniawi...i personally failed to be a good muslim....

leka/lalai/dan segala kerosakkan berlaku...

its true iman is like a wheel ...it can go up and it can go down....

the more u try to get close to HIM the more that HE will test u....until u surrender and sujud depan DIA kebuntuan DAN PENUH KELEMAHAN...

Allahuakbar......help me....

re-activation

Norafandi B Mohd Noor.thats my name.call me by that name.because that name give me strentgh.

lama dah tak tulis apa2..sebab mmg tak suka tulis kisah2 hidup..but alot of things to share.
usia 25 tahun..ermmmmmmmm...byk sgt benda yg berubah...almost everything.

working as a profesional...wiwiwi...its a never ending experience...everyday is a new challenge
Tired: of course!...but being a father to my family....just got to go with the flow...and do what ever i can so everyone tak miss sorru...

kaki bengkak...my weight diistribution kot!.keep changing shoes...

ermmm....can u guys see the flow of my storey..boringgg!!!! hahaha...entahla lonely....